Thursday, December 31, 2009

136: posts this year

It's the end of 20h0hnine.
Damn what a year...

as much as I'd love to recap.. the year came by so fast, it's like a fricken ninja. I dont remember a single thing.. It's like I remember bits and pieces and all I can think of is "that was this year?" or "that was last week?!"

but as a reflection... I think there is a lot to think back on.

MAJOR EVENTS
(not in order... in order according to what I remember)
I skipped school for like.. a whole month, since I was in america.
My watch BROKE!
I got braces!
I changed glasses
I becmae a senate!
uhh...
I got a new watch! and its preettty
went to perak..
I was introduced to J-dorama (at june hols thanks to my aunt) but is that really significant?
I made lots of friends.. yay!
my memory really sucks..

my birthday!
obviously.. the day i was born is significant to everyone.

I cant really think of anymore

NEW YEARS REZZ

lets see..

LOSE WEIGHT (goal is fourty something! YAY)
SLEEP EARLIER
EXCERCISE MORE
SPEND A BIT MORE MONEY
GO OUT MORE
ADVENTURES MORE
STUDY MORE
WATCH DRAMAS MORE LESS
BE MORE ACTIVE AND PRODUCTIVE
BE MORE POSSITIVE
BE NICER

yay.
xxx
batman smiles

sayonara

Friday, December 18, 2009

135: Wise words.. from a magazine

If you wait for inspiration before you go to work, you're going to make two paintings a year.

You can't fake it. To produce anything worthwhile requires a lot of work.

You can't please everyone, and it is pointless to try.

Don't try to figure out what others want; decide what you want in life.

Be yourself. Just be yourself about your art and everything else.

Show raw emotion in what you paint.

You must be honest with yourself and all others.

Discouragement is detrimental to your "painting health"

If you don't respect the other side of the argument, there can be no dialogue.

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

134: 30 seconds to mars is back! :D

A Warning to the people,
The Good and the Evil
This Is War
To the Soldier, The Civillian, The Martyr, The Victim
This is War
Its the moment of truth and the moment to lie
The moment to live and the moment to die
The moment to fight, the moment to fight, to fight, to fight, to fight
To the right To the left we will fight to the death
To the Edge of the Earth, It's a Brave New World from the last to the first
To the right, To the left, We will fight to the death
To the Edge of the Earth, it's a Brave New World it's a Brave New World it's a Brave New World
A warning to the prophet, the liar, the honest
This is War
To the leader, the pariah, the victim, the messiah
This is war
Its the moment of truth and the moment to lie
The moment to live and the moment to die
The moment to fight, the moment to fight, to fight, to fight, to fight
To the right, To the left, we will fight to the death
To the Edge of the Earth, It's a Brave New World from the last to the first
To the right, To the left, We will fight to the death
To the Edge of the Earth it's a Brave New World, it's a Brave New World, It's A Brave New World
I do believe in the light, raise your hands up to the sky
The fight is done, war is won, lift your hands toward the sun
toward the sun, toward the sun, the war is won
fight fight fight fight fight (choir)
To the right, To the left, we will fight to the death
To the Edge of the Earth, It's a Brave New World from the last to the first
To the right, To the left, We will fight to the death
To the Edge of the Earth it's a Brave New World it's a Brave New World It's A Brave New World
A Brave New World
The war is won,
the war is won,
a brave new world
I believe in nothing, not the end and not the start
I believe in nothing, not the earth and not the stars
I believe in nothing, not the day and not the dark
I believe in nothing but the beating of our hearts
I believe in nothing 100 suns until we part
I believe in nothing not in satan, not in god
I believe in nothing, not in peace and not in war
I believe in nothïng but the truth of who we are

Thursday, December 3, 2009

133: Gokusen the movie :D

When this dream, this dream comes true someday
You’ll be there, yes, you’ll be there
Wouldn’t it be great to softly smile together?

It’s almost as if on that day I met you the sky moved in nothing but slow motion
It felt like just one thing was promised when we met in the wind
The high number of times I looked down also fell
When I was alone again, I began to think that I shouldn’t search for a smile

Even when our hands were connected, even when you were at my side in this world where our hearts separate us
You simply repainted this world where endless far-off feelings exist

When this dream, this dream comes true someday
You’ll be there, yes, you’ll be there
Wouldn’t it be great to softly smile together?

If I think about it, even that moment where your cheerful humming dyes my life changes colour everyday
I’ve always lived my life blaming something on others
And never trying to do something for anyone else

Under the whole starry sky, I remembered how we used to talk together about how our dreams were small but still existed
Like standing up an oath to the quiet sky, you were honest to me

When that dream, that dream comes true someday
I’ll be at your side, yes, I’ll be at your side
Wouldn’t it be great to softly smile together?

While humming my favourite song
And while thinking lovingly about you as you poured water into the decorated flower vase by the window
I made a strong oath to my heart

Even when a fleeting-like future is reflected in those eyes
I’ll be at your side, forever, yes, forever
So it’s okay, and…

Even if this song gets wilted in the shadow of fads
This song will surely someday make the indifferent you who hasn’t changed listen to it, in the form of a “flower song”
And surely, you will love this song

Saturday, November 28, 2009

132: you there with the sad eyes

You with the sad eyes
don't be discouraged
oh I realize
it's hard to take courage
in a world full of people
you can lose sight of it all
and the darkness inside you
can make you fell so small

But I see your true colors
shining through
I see your true colors
and that's why I love you
so don't be afraid to let them show
your true colors
true colors are beautiful
like a rainbow

Show me a smile then
don't be unhappy, can't remember
when I last saw you laughing
if this world makes you crazy
and you've taken all you can bear
you call me up
because you know I'll be there


Saturday, November 14, 2009

131: sakura falls in Japan

We in our 30's are caught up in Arashi!
Sakurai Sho-kun Collection

"Although I didn't have any interest in Johnnys, Arashi is different!"
"Who do you like in Arashi?" "It might be the first time since I was a student, that I've become so caught up in idols... Arashi is really good!!"
We've come these past few years hearing this sentiment from women in their 30s.
Maybe that heat is at the point of settling in, on one hand gradually overheating.
And then finally the long-awaited first MISS appearance of Arashi's Sakurai Sho!
Sakurai-kun is equipped with a sense of freshness and intelligence and dignity, and also unskillfullness.
From his sincere tone of voice we discover "now"'s sincere Sakuraism.
We begin to be able to see why Arashi has charmed us this much!


Photo: Momoko Katsuoka Styling: Masashi Nomura (STUTTGART)
Hair & Make-up: Yoshinori Takeuchi (MAKE UP ROOM) Special Thanks to PROPS NOW
Editor: Miki Kawada (MISS)


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1 Analects of Sho-chan
"Music has been close to me since I was little.
I played the trombone, and my father played the guitar.
Dance, which expressed that music in a different form, seemed cool."



Sho-chan's Soliloquy
How do you hold a rabbit? (Sakurai-kun, while moving a little gingerly....) Owww (The rabbit's claws got him....) You're asking how long its been since I held a rabbit? I think it's the first time.

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Arashi's Sakurai Sho-kun had just had his 27th birthday a few days before this interview. The aura and dignity that wraps him up reaches to fresh.

"This morning, I went for a physical. I hadn't had a physical examination since I was a high schooler. I was super healthy, a healthy wonder kid. I drank barium. It's harsh, that."



Nowadays it's not all that usual for an idol to have higher education, but when Sakurai-kun debuted as Arashi 10 years ago, it was still the minority. Further, when you hear an idol went from the Keio lower schools to graduate from the Keio Economics department in 4 years, there are undeniably inquisitive eyes. Why would such a guy go into Johnny's Jimusho?

"There are two reasons, and when we were in elementary school Hikaru GENJI was popular. They were incredibly cool, and also, at the time I saw one of Micheal Jackson's music videos, and I thought I'd like to try dancing. So one was that as far as I could see on TV, the only ones dancing were people from Johnny's. And then, when I was in my second year of middle school I went to my friend's older brother's high school's cultural festival. When I did, even though I was just a regular middle schooler, a high school girl screamed 'It's a Johnnys Jr.!' and was like, 'Please take a picture with me'. I went along with how my friends around me said, 'Try sending in a resume,' while they burst out laughing."

We understand the motivation. But why did Sakurai-san want to want to dance, I wonder?

"Music has been close to me since I was little, you might say. I was made to play the piano, and when I was in elementary school I was in the brass band, and I wanted to play the trumpet but I lost at rock-paper-scissors so I played the trombone. And then, my father played the guitar. Dance, which expressed that music in a different form, seemed cool."

Acting honestly according to his feelings, that was the answer we heard. But after sending in that resume, he was overwhelmed

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2 Analects of Sho-chan
"At our debut we were brought to Hawaii
without understanding what was going on. It was a feeling that Arashi had been swallowed deeply,
getting caught up in a large whirlpool."



by various circumstances that were like a wave.

"At 13 I wrote my resume for the first time, and I sent it in without saying anything to my parents. And then when club activities were over and I got home, an express envelope with the sender not written on it had arrived. That day was Saturday, and it said please come to an audition the next Sunday. I had passed the initial written application, so concerning tomorrow's second test, please come, that kind of thing.

"My mother had burst out laughing in the kitchen, but while my dad was watching TV in the the living room he said, 'You're definitely not going,' and I thought, 'Oh man, what should I do?' But somehow, the next morning, I was brought to the audition meeting place in a care driven by my father, and well, the more I think about it now, I think it was a home where you were let do the things you wanted to do, because my father took me there like that."

After that, in Johnnys Jr., he was called to rehearsal for the programs his sempai would be appearing on every week. The 100 people that had been there at the time of the audition were 50 people by the next week, 25 by the next week, and when a year had passed only a handful remained. And as he kept staying, with a surprising amount of effort and tenacious mental ability he took on balancing his work and his studies.

"Although at the time I didn't really think of it as work, it was just fun. Guys who were all around my age gathered from lots of places, and it was a feeling like it was some kind of club. I remember it even now, but class in middle school ended at 2:50. There were 56 minutes on the express train, and the moment class ended I would run so I could make that 56 minute express train. I would ride that and then there would be a 3 and a half hour rehearsal for Music Station or something. I went in my school uniform.

"But on the other hand, it became necessary that I not let my grades fall. Because I thought I'd be told it was because I was doing that kind of stuff that my grades had fallen. Because I couldn't leave even that little gap. So even if I caught a cold or had a fever, I went to school everyday starting first period, and, the day before, no matter if we had ended in the middle of the night or what, I made it through with no tardies and no absences."



And then finally talk came


Sho-chan's Soliloquy
I haven't been going to the gym recently. Just by training a little bit, I soon get muscles. (And, while patting his arm...). I guess it must by natural.

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3 Analects of Sho-chan
"Because at concerts I get yelled 'kya-' at,
it's like I'm also 'kya-' (smile).
That time is the most fun."


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of his debut as "Arashi."

"Because I didn't continue because I wanted to debut, I only continued because it was fun. I thought I'd do it until I entered college. So in the two months from the end of January or beginning of February when exams were over to when college started, I thought I'd maybe go abroad and do a homestay. When I told my manager that, he said, 'There's no way you can go.' Huh, why couldn't I go!? This situation, something's funny here, was sort of how it became."

So then was there a choice to follow a path other than Arashi?

"There wasn't. Like, it's said, most people in the world, basically I was the same. I didn't have a dream, and I thought I'd just sort of go to college and just sort of get a job. So it's weird. If the timing had been off a little bit, I don't think I would have been in Arashi."

The destiny that chose him, how did Sakurai-kun react to that reality?

"I'm pretty much a realist, so yeah, I don't really think it was me doing as much as I could and becoming a member. Just something incidental, like timing, or maybe luck... I guess."



While riding the waves of time and being made to ride them, his activities as Arashi started. He was unable to pull away from his studies, and work was completely uncompromising. If there are geniuses in the world, Sakurai-kun is a person of effort. But if he doesn't have talent given from heaven, he shouldn't be able to participate in this harsh world.

"Because I think that I don't have anything like natural talent at all. That's probably what makes me worry. I have to accumulate things. I don't think I'm really exerting myself that much, but if I'm being estimated as that, I think it's because I worry. But that is, it's different from having no confidence. In a sense, I think I believe in myself strongly. So I'm a talented person, but maybe I have an aptitude for working hard."

A talent for working hard. Throwing out an example from a newspaper he read recently, he continued on to say this.

"Speaking of volume (effort), I think it was a column in a newspaper I read recently, there are letters that start writing from, 'I don't have much time today, so I'm sorry if this letter gets long'. In other words, it's simple to just on at length, spewing things out, but how you can condense the things that have built up inside you and output them smartly is important. I've come to think that's very important. Like, it's second hand you know, second hand from the newspaper (smile)."

I understood from this attitude going into raw seriousness, in the journalism world, he has another face.

"In both the books I read and the movies, there were many documentaries, and there was also the big reason that I had an interest. When I thought about it there wasn't anyone in the company doing it, and that might have also been a large motivation."

Suiting those feelings of his, this year he begins his third year as a caster.

"With just 27 years old, Johnnys, Arashi's Sakurai Sho can sit in the caster's seat, there might not be much I can do. But I have to believe just maybe there are people who wouldn't have given us a chance if I wasn't in that position, that's what I think now."



Even so, Sakurai-kun's ability to be calm is incredible. Is this his true form?

"Today I'm going with formal behavior (smile). Rather, I love things like festivals and concerts! Because the fans all yell 'kya-', it's like I'm also 'kya-'. Of course that time is the most fun. Especially last year was our first time at the National Olympic Stadium, and as far as you could look out it was our fans, and it was


4 Analects of Sho-chan
"Because I think that I don't have
anything like natural talent at all,
that's probably what makes me worry.
But I think maybe I have an aptitude for
working hard."


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moving.

"Uh, after concerts? In general, I guess we almost always go drinking. If we drink with the staff who came to the concert for us, they compliment us a lot (smile). Saying we keep it to after concerts, it's like we go drinking to be praised (smile)."

Incidentally, when he goes on stage, what is reflected in Sakurai-kun's eyes?

"Basically we only hear good things usually, so we honestly don't know if it's a lie of the truth. So I guess you could say we know if we have a concert. If there's a mother holding a child, or when there are also people who come as a family of as a group of 3 guys. The space where we can feel for ourselves that a lot of people have really come to know is is of course that place. That's why we really look at everyone's faces. Kind of like, 'Oh, that girl's become a fan of so-and-so? Even though up until last time she was holding my uchiwa. I wonder, did I do something bad (smile)?'"

That Arashi is entering their tenth year this year. Those strong emotions are to be expected, but Sakurai-kun has already set his eyes on what's ahead of that.

"I guess it's been these last three years, where I felt that if I recklessly kept giving 120% to the things in front of me, today's things, tomorrow's things, somehow a road that connected to what's after that would open. Because oppositely as a special characteristic of our work, it's like if you stand still you're done, so we had to keep running. Now I'm really looking forward to what we do from our 11th year. So that the calm after the storm doesn't become a calm, one step at a time, just like we've been doing so far, we have to continue to gather things one by one, or things won't come together into a shape, I think. Everything from our 11th year on is presently a blank sheet. Please give us work. I'll write down the company's telephone number for you, where you can reach us (smile)."



As that one 27 year old man, Sakurai Sho, it seems he has something he's a little worried about....

"It's about my family, but I think my position is strange. I'm the first child, and I started working early, so from both my parents and my younger sister and brother the feeling that I'm relied on is huge. Of course the two central pillars are my mother and father, but... I'm not central, but I am a pillar. Even so, as I try jump into things from my parent's legs, even now I live with my parents (smile). But it's about time, isn't it. I'm thinking I'd like to move this year. I want to live someplace away from home. If I lived close, I'll just end up going back home. I guess I'll go with someplace far away enough where there's a feeling of separation."



This is one passage from the rap composed by Sakurai-kun. "For myself, who I've come this far believing in/For everyone who's added dreams/A word of thanks for my family/'I believe' just to the limits of my strength/That this impatience too will someday become a seed..." (From Arashi's "Kaze no Mukou e") I feel like I've understood the person that can write these straightforward lines, Sakurai-kun, just a little bit.

Standing in front of the camera, his form taking a pose without hesitating. One could also say his flawless smart behavior was the appearance of his "charming unskillfullness." Surely this quality of giving everything creates Arashi's exquisite sense of solidarity. But, this perfect behavior at times also felt like a wall. It is for this reason, I thought I'd like to see a Sakurai-kun who was just a bit more, just a little more relaxed. It doesn't have to be quickly, and we don't have to rush. It's okay if it's the slow, deliberate rhythm that Arashi has been marking off thus far, so I'd like to see an easy-going Sakurai-kun. However, this Sakurai-kun, this Arashi, that has evoked in me this much a feeling I can't ignore... More and more I can't take my eyes of of them.


5 Analects of Sho-chan
"I live with my parents.
I try jump into things from my parent's legs (smile).
But, I'm thinking I'd like to move this year.
It's about time, isn't it, that I should stop relying on my parents."


Sho-chan's Soliloquy
A historical person I'd like to trying playing? Uh, I don't really know many historical people. I don't know the military commanders of the warring states or anything. (...After thinking for a few seconds) Yamato Takeru no Mikoto! Since we don't know what he was actually like, it seems I could do it.

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Nino is...
Ninomiya Kazunari Kazunari Ninomiya
"The rotations of his mind,
are good, they're fast.
It's kind of like, from a different place he's at by himself, there are moments when it's like he sees things.
There are times when with a commanding view he takes things in from a different angle."


6 Analects of Sho-chan
"We took ten years and came this far at our own pace.
There were ups and downs, and also times
we seemed to go a roundabout way.
Looking at us, we want you to feel dreams,
or rather be thankful with dreams.
Like, if you have the will to do something, you can do it."



Aiba is...
Aiba Masaki Masaki Aiba
"Well, he's cheerful.
Well, he's cheerful (smile).
Because he has an atmosphere of drawing the people around him in and enjoying something. Like the sun, maybe.
What, when Aiba was in MISS he called me a penguin!? He said he was a dolphin!? Although he doesn't know anything else, he really knows about animals.
Also... He copies the stores I go to. Really, I'd like him to stop! (smile)"


Ohno-kun is...
Ohno Satoshi Satoshi Ohno
"A talented person,
I think.
He's good at dancing, good at drawing.
I think he's a person with an abundance of talent on one hand, and of course the effort backing that up, he doesn't let you see it, but he's doing a lot of it I think. He's strict with himself, that person. There are times when even when he gets an OK from those around him, he can't be satisfied until he gets an OK from himself.
On the other hand, there are also times when even though those around him gives him an NG he's given himself an OK (smile)."


MatsuJun is...
Matsumoto Jun Jun Matsumoto
"Serious
isn't he.
To say it in a way that's easy to understand, he's a prototypical A type person, he's very detail-oriented. Added to that, he's serious.
What's it called, his form of exertion as he faces each project one by one, well, he's serious.
How should I say it... stoic!? He thinks things through quite well, and he has his ways of doing things."


The Fans are...
"Mysterious, aren't they.
Truly important... people who understand us wellL I guess.
Because there are people who know me better than I know myself, sometimes. There are lots of things you say in a magazine on the radio a long time ago that you don't remember, right, when you've been working for 10 years. There are times when I'm told, 'you were cool at such and such a time,' and I'm like, 'which?' (smile).
Bearing in mind these things, they might just be the people who understand us 5 the best."


Sho Sakurai
Born January 25th, 1982. After debuting with Arashi at age 17, he's participated in a broad range of dramas, commercials, movies, etc. He is also looking towards his third year as a caster on NEWS ZERO (NTV). The movie Yatterman opens on 3/7 (Sat.). Its theme song, "Believe" sung by Arashi, goes on sale 3/4 (Wed.). In this year of Arashi's 10th anniversary, he's going to work more to fully to repay the fans!!

Saturday, October 31, 2009

130: thank you :)

Justine:
hey, GAGA ew, no, em, your greatest achievement you've done to me is introducing the word 'gay' to me, cause that is the only right word to describe you. Stay or grow fat, fatter than me, then I shall consider doing more job for you. this is the only time that your slave would be writing something touching to you and if you ignore this as always when people tag you, then you won’t' know how much I enjoyed you and loved you this year. ok I should not be imagining what your face or expression would be like because if I do, then I won't be writing touching stuffs. I felt so, that you've influenced me, taught me to socialize, and be gay, and knowing that leading a gay life can be fun:) you influenced me to be funny, and trained me to give good comebacks. and gaga, for the first and perhaps only time, unless you really raise my pay next yr, I'm going to tell you sincerely that, you really rock, I am always entertained by you, your maturity showed me that sometimes things can be insignificant, by showing me how much you don't care about thing that has no meaning to you, and how much I don't have to pay attention at things that I don't have to bother. you are the only person that I could have oral fights with and the only person that has funny and cool comebacks, trust me, no one beats u. I love you, for the way you want yourself to different and the wind that you brought when you walked pass by me cause you are cool, I swear, and as always, I shall be your faithful slave :)
I ❤ you, Justine Ocampo


This really made my day :)
thank you slave

I think I WILL give you a raise :D

there's a really bad thuderstorm right now and thunder just flahsed. Must be the heavens telling me not to. So I guess I won't.

sorry

xxx
batman loves you too

Sunday, October 25, 2009

129: 100 questions I'll be asked in a japanese gameshow

1. What is your name? (could be your full name or nickname)
Justine Dominique
2. When were you born?
May 01 '94
3. Where were you born?
Philippines
4. Where are you currently residing?
Singapore :>
5. How many languages do you speak?
English... I don't think you can consider the other languages I know as "Speaking"
6. Do you have any siblings?
Yes, I'm the middle child
7. Would you show us your childhood pics?
suure

8. How did you spend your childhood?
playing :]
9. Any childhood dreams?
I really like going on adventures
10. Did it come true?
Half way there :D
11. Most memorable childhood moment.
my memory is really bad, but I'm sure that if you remind me of any memorable moments I'm sure I'll say something like "WOAH! AWESOME!!" and then remember it from then on.
12. Current occupation.
student
13. Past jobs.
my parents would pay me if i did chores and I used to hand make stationary paper and sell them for 10 cents to my family (I really love money)
14. Dream job.
Artist/someone that works in the entertainment business. Anything fun and full of admirable people will be awesome. Something that I can comit to and be motivated with easily is the best i guess.
15. How do you see yourself 10 years from now?
hopefully trying to work hard
16. Do you have any pets?
as much as I'd love a wolf, it's completely impossible for me to be capable of taking care of one
17. Please show us the contents of your bag.
Cell phone, iTouch, wallet and whatever I need for that day. like notebook or DS for when I expect it to be boring or presents or things I need to return etc. etc. Sometimes camera and snacks for just in case situtations :D
18. Something you must always have with you at all times.
My watch (or anything that tells time.. which in this case since my watch broke.. my cell phone)
19. What or who is on the wallpaper of your cell phone?
none.. I dont think my phone is capable of doing that...
20. How do you define your style?
simple, replies to the occasion.
21. Favorite fashion brand.
the popular ones (since I dont really know any others and too lazy to look around... but I am open minded and if the time calls for it I do bother to look at any shop)
22. What’s your favorite cartoon? (could be an anime, if you want).
LOADS!!!
23. Favorite TV show.
In Japan : Cartoon KAT-TUN and AnS and HnA and VSA
24. What were you good at in school?
I'm not specially good at anything.. I'm only average at everything
25. Who can you do an impersonation of?
I'm not sure... I haven't really tried to do one before..
26. Something that you would call yourself.
You... ?
27. What do you collect?
Juxtapoz magazines and souveneirs from special occassions (movie tickets, seashells, notes etc.)
28. What is the most expensive thing that you have ever bought?
I have no idea... concert tickets? clothes, notebooks, books, presents..? (everythings expensive for me)
29. What was the best present you have ever received?
I really like the whole "its the thought that counts" so I love any present I receive
30. Do you play any musical instruments?
I think the world will benefit more if I did not...
31. What is your first impression of KAT-TUN? Boring compared to Arashi
32. When or how did you first learn of them?
through arashi and gokusen
33. How long have you been a fan of them? a few months after I became a fan of arashi
34. What do you think makes them different from the other JE groups?
they're style of music and type costumes ( its more dark and rock. ) Though they still have the JE's dance sequences
35. Being a KAT-TUN fan, what is the craziest thing you’ve done?
wasting too much time watching videos of them.
36. To what lengths can you show or prove that you’re a fan?
I'm not really into proving I'm their biggest fan thing.. those kind of things are completely shallow
37. Do you have anything in common with them?
I dunno...I might :)
38. Is there something that you like for them to change?
their dancing.
39. Do you think they lack something?
intimacy/closeness within the group
40. Let’s say they can sing any song in any language, what would you have them sing for you? their own song yorokobi no uta :D or they can cover an arashi song. that's the best (for me... I dunno about arashi..)
41. What other JE groups do you like?
this question is way to obvious. NEXT
42. Other music aside from JE?
Fall Out Boy!! :D or Aqua timez if from Japan...
43. Is there anything you want to say to Johnny?
Please give me a job :>
44. What’s your favorite KT costume?
:| I have no clue... I dont really remember any
45. What can you beat KAT-TUN in?
Speaking English! And drawing/painting
46. What do you want to do for them?
Help them out with their problems (if any)
47. What do you want to teach them?
How to make the square balloon origami
48. What do you want them to teach you? (What do you want to learn from them?)
How to do a backflip!!!!!
49. Something that you want to do together.
Go wakeboarding or go to a traditional Japanese festival and wear yukatas and eat all kinds of festival food!!
50. What is your special skill?
hmm.. I wonder if thats really a special skill.
51. What do you think separates you from other people?
I really have no idea... everyone's so different that they're the same ne?
52. Is there something that you want to try the most?
Parachuting, or riding in a hot air balloon, or travelling the world on a boat, being a ninja, going on all kinds of Japanese variaty shows, meet Johnny! DO A BACKFLIP
53. What have you been currently working hard on?
The video montage.
54. Something that has caught your attention recently.
Wakeboarding and boats
55. What do you like doing best?
watching videos/movies etc.
56. What is your best characteristic?
patient and can see from other perspectives (sometimes)
57. What is your bad habit?
procrostinate when it's time to study
58. Do you have any fetishes?
I always sleep in the car (my own car.)
59. How do you release your stress?
watching videos or writing or thinking about it
60. What activity completes your day?
doing what I need to do or doing something exciting and satisfying
61. Do you have a favorite saying?
happiness is not something we find, its something we create.”
62. What motivates you in life?
ooh.. the question came out huh? uh.. NEXT
63. Where do you take inspiration from?
things I find interesting and makes me think and ask questions and gets me dreaming. Like paintings or movies or books and sometimes conversations from people and random acts of kindess I witness. etc. etc.
64. In the future, I want to ______ :
be happy with my nakama :)
65. What was the best thing that happened in your life?
Being able to meet all kinds of people from different backgrounds
66. Most embarrassing?
ooo... uh.. i cant think of one :D
67. What is the funniest story that you could share?
AHA! I got one :)
68. When was your first love?
uhh... hmm.. in kindergarden?
69. Describe him.
Very fun to be with and leader like.
70. What action from a guy makes your heart flutter?
when he notices things I dont and is able to point out a whole new and logical perspective from mine and introduce me to new things
71. What qualities do you look for in a man?
sincerety
72. What type do you hate?
insensitive
73. What does a guy do to turn you off?
when he hits people (esp. girls) seriously (its ok if its a joke kind of way)
74. The easiest way to your heart?
caring and super good friend
75. The meanest way to be broken up with?
saying there's someone else
76. What kind of people can’t you stand?
shallow, self centered, insincere, narrow minded, rote learning people
77. Favorite food.
interestingly things that start with Ch, chocolate, cheese, chicken... but I pretty much eat everything.
78. Something that you do not like eating.
the pink thing in tori-Q bentos and wasabi.
79. Something that you would recommend to someone visiting your country.
chicken rice.. I guess..
80. What would you cook for KAT-TUN?
Lechaflan!
81. What would you like to show them?
My art and friends :)
82. Any CM you would like them to do?
A CM for high heels would be super interesting
83. When are you at your happiest?
when I'm able to completely be myself and not having to think of a character to play
84. What is it your most afraid of?
blood and pain.
85. What makes you throw a tantrum?
when something completely unfair and annoying bothers me.
86. What new segment do you want CTKT to have?
hmm... one where people can know you guys more in (like those personality tests and dame dame arashi thing)
87. Anyone you want them as a guest?
Yankumi :)
88. Who is your fave KAT-TUN member?
Kame I guess.
89. Do you have anything you have in common with him?
not sure... Kame?
90. How did you end up liking him?
in Nobuta wo produce, I was able to relate to his character a lot.
91. If you could say ONE SENTENCE to him, what would it be?
cartoon KAT-TUN won't have any good ratings if conversations ended up like that you know.
92. More importantly, if you won a date with him, where do you want him to take you?
somewhere fun! where we can know each other more and break the ice easily, and be ourselves comfortably.
93. What is the best gift that you want to receive from him?
an inside joke kind of thing
94. Who do you want as your boyfriend?
Kame, since I've been talking about him already
95. Your best friend?
Everyone :)
96. Your husband?
Kame, he was my boyfriend right?
97. Your brother?
Jin, he looks fun to be with
98. Your pet?
Koki, he's really funny and playful
99. Your distant cousin?
Taguchi, so my cousin won't be so distant
100. What song would you want them to perform for you?
An acoustic version of Yorokobi no Uta

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

128: damn its been a while huh?

quick update to fill in the major/meager eents of the past months (wow.)
exams are over! yay.
I am a pedophile.. yay. (k not a pedophile.. hopelessly desperate then)
I have become highly addicted to japan. yay (for japan)
I am the senator. yay
everythings starting with 'I'. yay.
I ate gren pringles (seaweed flavoured.) It's really weird... yay.
geez, so many yet so little has actually happened in these months.
either that or i dont remember..

innywho I just wanna spread my philosphical stuff to get it off my chest :)

I have decided that in (my) life I can live 3 ways. (well 2... or 4)
1) Is the robotic/mainstream way of life, where I go to college and get a job that I am acceptionally content with and settle down yada yada
2) there is the save the world life! where I can work for things like national geographic or discoery channel or something and see the world and be like that crocodile hunter guy that died by a stingray or I can be like a journalist and say stuff about poverty and global warming. its just to pretty much go around the world and really... experience stuff, and cange things (scientifically) I guess.. I just wanna explore the world you know.
3) the ninja way ;) I can like be a hermit or some philosophical traverller. sorta something like going to japan and finding a akido house where i can live in for free and dedicate my whole life to perfecting the art of akido under a master that i can respect and form a close bond with etc. etc those cliche type things. so this one is pretty much to dedicate myself humbly to something or secretively... something like number 1 but not number 1?
4) and semi lastly... the entertainment industry! i can be like a director or writer and create my own films and inspire people through my movies. or an actress in japanese drama series and participate in japanse variety shows xD (yes it is one of my dreams.. so what)

It sucks how by chosing one it sort of feels like its impossible to be able to turn back to be able to try the other ones. and there are so many things to worry about and plan for and take care of in order to get to at least one of them. in a way i see it, 4 might be the more suitable option to chose if i were to aim for all 4, if i make it big as a director or actress then on sight filming can take me to places ive never seen before and by perfecting my skills its sorta like number 3, its just number 1 thats hard to handle...
its like theres no normal ness in the entertainment industry (unless im a directory then thats good enoug :D I earn $$ and i dont have to go shopping wearing big sunglasses and a hat pulled down all the way past my eyebrows)

i hate how theres so many perspectives and ways to live that its so hard to dedicate myself to one. and when i dedicate myself to one (currently that one being a highschool happy student etc etc) it feels unfulfilling... like.. in a way I cant ever fully dedicate myself to it.

I lost the feeling...
hold on... nope i cant get it back..

now i have no idea what to say cause i lost my point..
but i guess my point is... its easy to be happy in life. but its hard to be ______. its hard to find it.

ya know?

and then I also have another issue.
why do we idolise celeberites so much?
when you see how glamorous they are on tv and then you go to their concerts your overwhelmed!
and then these rumours and scandals come out and die hard fans deffend the celebs.
i find it all really weird.
cause then... arent these people too?
what makes us idolise them so much when we dont even know them know them?
we think we know them, when you hear these rumors we deffend them like we have every right to (ok we do... but.. the celebs dont know you, they'll only say "i wanna thank my fans" and you feel special cause your thanked.. along with a gazillion others)
I dunnoo.
I'm not bad mouthing or anything, i just feel like... this bond we have, the connection we create due to the media with the people or characters (yes like edward cullen, where so many girlfriends broke up with their boyfriends cause theyre not like edward cullen. wtf?) the connection we create with these people, what is it?
the bond we have with our family is through blood etc. we're family
bonds with friends? we go through thick and thin etc. nakama ;D
these two are personal basis
then what bout other bonds?
bonds with strangers, or something.. im too lazy to explain bonds right now cause i dont have that issue on my chest (yet) but whats really bugging me is
how the connection of fan and celeb is created.

i can understand those that inspire others. but sometimes it just sounds like an excuse. as an art student i can totally relate and understand to things like, response to issues in society and relating and responding and admiring others art etc etc. but sometimes, most of the times its not like that! people wanna know who theyre dating and people create fan fiction and people create things like, i dunno i cant explain!!

its just weird.

why are people so...

addicted?

and how come when you're in this world where you're admiring something (from celebs, characters, anything you hard corely admire)
how come that world, when comparing it to reality, reality really feels so black and white. like watching paint dry.

when actually, you (should) realise, its not. cause you can make so much more out of reality when your focusing on it instead of admiring and dazing out into that world of "your not even in personal terms with the character, they dont know you exist etc etc" world, that reality can seem like its so much much better.

and when i realise this (and snap out and completely forget about that world) I am happy :) :)
and it makes me want to have a camera and video tape it and show it to the rest of the world so that other people can go into the world of admiring US :D

somehow by having a world, reality feels much lonlier.

that world is an escape. to a place where you can dream (i guess... for me I imagine scenarios of what would happen if i were friends with them) and then reality comes into play and it gets confusing and hard to manage sometimes and it gets hard to accept. (somehow.... hmm.. not really explaining myself properly here)

innywho...
thats all i can say for now.. since i cant really do any better.

xxx
batman forgot how to end these posts

Thursday, July 2, 2009

127: we're all just seeing

Smeared with frustration, lost in fads, I sing as I pretend to be happy
Persuading myself to run some more, I go recklessly and quietly windward
Taking a glance at the road I came down, sorry I’ve got time to spare; Enemies on all sides, one game after going into war
“Life has its mountains, valleys, and cliffs” garbage piles up
On an endless journey, I stop by the outskirts of town
Quietly throwing down my tired legs, when I lie down I fall into a repeating shallow sleep
That same profile over and over again, saying those same words over and over again
“Am I the only one that thinks being alive is sad?”

Cigarette smoke rolls into the air and disappears into the empty space

On a day when we’re definitely still feeble and childish
You now have looked at a sadness that you don’t have to look at
You’re passing the time holding back tears that you don’t have to hold back
We’re not so strong that I can live my life only by what’s real
We don’t have to be strong
Alright?

I raised my eyelids and the world was in spring; Pushing my way through the cherry blossom colored wind
Headed toward somewhere far away, I wonder if you were in this vegetable garden?
As I searched for the flapping of white bird’s wings in the sky
I wonder if you definitely listened closely to the ground and searched for an ant’s black footsteps?

Taking off the pierrot like mask, standing on a hill forgotten by the sun

Basking in the moonlight, I take in a deep breath
A world without yelling voices and the sound of plates cracking
We can live our lives without warmth
But us just living our lives isn’t enough

The budding earth, the thick trees, the disappearing rainbow, the passing days
And the night sky’s speaker; The wonders of the four seasons taught us, who continue to search for truth, these things

No matter how far you travel, at the beginning of life
We were lone babies that cried out to want to live and be loved
For the sake of knowing that the reason for heading somewhere that isn’t here
Is somewhere that isn’t in the heart

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

126: evil lady fingers




You Are A Poplar Tree



People tend to look up to you, and it's a bit lonely at the top.

Inside, you are not always self confident, but you show great courage.

Mature and organized, you are reliable in any situation.

You tend to have an artistic or philosophical outlook on life.

You are very choosy in love and take partnership seriously.






Your Pirate Name Is: Evil Ladyfingers



Yarrgh!





Your Lucky Love Color Says You're Hopeful



When someone gets to know you, the first thing they notice is how romantic you are. The most romantic of all the colors, in fact.

You are a big flirt and a total tease. Your antics get you in trouble, but they also get you what you want.

And unlike what your color might suggest, you are not a princess of any sort. If anything, you make your man feel like a prince.

Your heart is dreamy and open. You don't put restrictions on love - because you never know what can happen.





You Are a Burger



You are a down to earth person and a straight shooter. You don't fall for fads or trends.

You are stable and a bit old fashioned. Tradition and loyalty are important to you.



You are a good friend and you like to have a good time. You find it easy to kick back.

You're not one to make waves in life. You're happy just to be a part of the fun.





Your Love Quote is Romantic



True love stories never have endings.





Your Name's Power is Creativity



Your name's power is that it helps you be creative.

Your name conveys both purity and skill.



People who meet you can't help but think you are charming.

You try to live your life with people you trust, surrounded by nature.






Your Animal is the Adder



You are mentally sharp. You have an amazing memory, and you're a shrewd problem solver.

You are a natural healer, and you are drawn toward taking care of people.



Your family is the most important thing to you. You feel lost without them.

You are drawn to the mystical and magical. You find the paranormal to be useful in understanding the world.

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

125: from christie

Ten things I wish I could say to ten different people right now
1. Their not cuter at all!
2. Where are the pictures?
3. Wendy's a gold digger
4. I wanna go to a karaoke bar!
5. Let's go out!
6. Gimme that cookie
7. Can I play with your DS
8. F off
9. KOREAN DRAMA?!?
10. Tell me everything

Nine things about myself
1. I am now watchng hana-yori-dango-
2. I am now 1000 pesos richer
3. I am about to go shopping with it tomorrow :D
4. I wanna go bunjee jumping :D
5. If you read Christie's quiz, #5 and bellow are actually the same things I'd write but that'll be corny so I'm changing it
6. My cousin can actually lift me up as in on his shoulder like caveman would carry people. (SHOCKING SOMEONE CAN CARRY ME! with the exception of hulk anisha)
7. Martin can kick my ass in skateboarding :|
8. I have been keeping journals since 2004 whne my best friend gave me my very first one for my bday :D
9. I wanna get married early so my great grandparents can attend the wedding

Eight ways to win my heart
1. Funny :D
2. FOOD
3. The mysterious type
4. Honesty and straightforwardness
5. Not mainstream
6. Dependable
7. Best friend type
8. Cool with my religion

Seven things that cross my mind a lot
1. What do I buy?!?!??!
2. Life
3. Homework
4. The future
5. People
6. Stories
7. Past

Six things I do before I fall asleep
1. Take my glasses off
2. Brush my teeth
3. Put my blanket on
4. Kick it off
5. Set alarm
6. Preparations

Four things you're wearing right now
1. Pyjamas
2. Glasses
3. Hair tie
4. Watch

Three songs that you listen to often
1. Three cheers for five years - mayday parade
2. She's a lady - forever the sickest kids
3. Sugar we're going down - Fall out boy

Two things you want to do before you die
1. Be a hero
2. Have a cool life

One confession
1. I don't wanna stop believing .

Sunday, June 21, 2009

124: happy fathers day!

I need to go pee

:)

xxx
batman's dad

Sunday, June 14, 2009

123: more from christie yay

HONEST SECTION

Honestly, what color is your underwear?:
purple with a blue band thing on the top (its one of those boxer shorts type.)

Honestly, whats on your mind?: Why did I tell you that? I like boxer shorts :>

Honestly, what are you doing right now?: Waiting for my video to load

Honestly, who is your best friend?: Gelin.
HAH

Honestly, have you done something bad today?: I said my brother farted in the car... it was me

Honestly, do you watch Disney channel?: no

Honestly, who is the last person you talked to on the phone?: uncle i think.

Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now?: Yeah

Honestly, what makes you mad most of the time?: The unjustified world

Honestly, do you bite your nails?: eww no. but i bite the dead skin off on the sides

Honestly, do you want to see someone this very moment?: Yes.

Honestly, are you keeping a big secret right now?: I think they found out it was me anyway.

Honestly, do you have a friend you don’t actually like?: Gelin
HAH HAH.

Honestly, does anyone like you?: fml.

CAN SECTION

Can you blow a bubble?: YES :D:D
Can you dance?: .................................................................
Can you do a cartwheel?: Yes :D
Can you tie a cherry stem with your mouth?: I TRIED TO!!! in your face martin
Can you touch your toes?: Yes.
Can you whistle?: I actually forgot how.
Can you wiggle your ears?: yess.
Can you wiggle your nose?: not as hardcore as ryan!
Can you roll your tongue?: no.. wait.. it think.
Can you make a clover with your tongue?: o_o
no.

ANGER SECTION

What do you do when you’re mad?: I either blow up or give the benefit of the doubt. Or bitch about them in my journal (thats you)

What’s the worst thing you’ve done when you were mad?: my life function switch turns off

Ever made anyone cry when you were mad?: Yeah.

Do you swear when you’re mad?: Yea.

TEAR SECTION

Ever really cried your heart out?: Yes.

Ever cried yourself to sleep?: Yes.

Ever cried on your friend’s shoulder?: Yes.

Ever cried over the same sex?: huh.

Do you cry when you get an injury?: Sometimes... especially when people keep poking it!

Do certain songs make you cry?: Yes.

Do certain movies make you cry?: Yes.

HAPPY SECTION

Are you usually a happy person?: When I'm high or with the people I'm comfy with.

What makes you the happiest?: food.

Does being with your friends make you happy?: Yes!

Do you believe in yourself?: mostly.

Do you wish you were happier?: Yeah of course, but I'm content.

Is being happy overrated?: sometimes. depends what kinda happiness it is

Can music make you happy?: no.

LOVE SECTION

How many times have you had your heart broken?: Once.

Have you ever loved someone so much that you’d die for them?: imma hero

Has anyone besides your friends/family ever said ‘I love you’ to you?: my slave

HATE SECTION

Do you actually hate anyone?: Gelin

Ever made a hit list?: HAHA yeah but as a joke

Have you ever been on a hit list?: hahaha yeah me and my friends made one each.

Are you a mean bully?: of course. how else do i get my slaves in shape?

Do you hate George Bush?: I dont really know him... but from all the accusations and stories its hard not too.. but then again.. there are good enough reasons as to why he didnt etc etc

SELF-ESTEEM SECTION

Is your self-esteem extremely low?: -_- yes

Are you good looking?: of course ;D
no.

Do you wish you could be someone else?: sometimes.

PHYSICAL SECTION

What is your current hair color?: Dark brown, depending on the light.

Current piercings: ears.

Have any tattoos?: None.

Straight hair or curly?: semi of both.

What shirt are you wearing?: white tee with dude on it.

Pants: denim

Shoes: socks

Necklace: neck.

HAVE YOU EVER SECTION

Hugged someone: Yes.

Been on the phone until the sun came up?: yes -_- dont ask nothing romantic

Laughed so hard you peed in your pants?: yeah... :D

Laughed so hard you cried?: yeah

Got in a fight with someone?: yeah.

LASTS SECTION

Person you talked to in person: brother.

Person you talked to online: forgot.

Person you talked to on the phone: uncle.

Person you hugged: kaka.

Person you kissed: uncle

RANDOM SECTION

Do you like surveys?: yes

Do you get along with your parents?: yes.

Do you have mental breakdowns?: every now and then. yes

CURRENT SECTION

Current mood: farted. satisfied ;)

Current music: none

Current hair style: pony tail

Current crush: no one

Current thing I ought to be doing: math

Current windows open: FML

Current desktop picture: the windows orig

Current book: adrian mole -_-

DID SECTION

Did you ever get into a fist fight in school?: does sally count.

Did you ever run away from home?: Yeah.

Did you ever want to be a doctor?: no.

Did you ever want to be a fire fighter?: no. i've never had any of these kinds of ambitions..

DO SECTION

Do you know how to swim?: Yeah.

Do you like roller coasters?: YESssssssssss and so does my grandma.. but she cant go cause of high blood pressure

Do you own a bike?: no :(

Do you think you could eat the stuff on those reality shows?: huh

DOES SECTION

Does hair loss run in your family at all?: yeah.

Does your car get good gas mileage?: shrug

Does your family have family picnics?: yea.

HAVE SECTION

Have you ever been on a plane?: no i swam to philippines!

Have you ever been asked out by someone?: Yes.

Have you ever been to the ocean?: Yes.

Have you ever painted your nails?: Yes. they're pretty right now :> :>:>

HOW SECTION

How did you find out about Facebook?: my uncle invited me

How many people are on your friend’s list?: less then a hundred -_-

How many of them have you met in person?: all of them

How tall are you?: 5 "4

How much money do you have on you right now?: 2000 P

LASTS SECTION AGAIN

Last person you hung out with?: the whole family

Last thing someone said to you?: "migui's sleeping so shhhh"

Last time you slept in all morning?: dont we always

Last thing you said out loud: lol

WHAT SECTION

What are you listening to?: some song my sister put on

What is the weather outside?: warm.

What radio station do you listen to?: I dunno

What was the last restaurant you ate at?: uhhhhhhhh

What was the last thing you had to drink?: Water

What was the last movie you watched?: last chance harvey

WHO SECTION

Who is your newest friend you added to Facebook?: my aunt

Who was the last person you IM’ed?: dunno

Who was the last person you took pictures of?: my sister

Friday, June 12, 2009

122: i wanne be the hero!

1. What do you do if you are in the bathroom with a beetle flying around?
beetle's fly? o_o

2. What do you do if you hear a song you like playing on the radio when you are all alone in the room?
scream OMG! and start jumping up and down then realise im being weird then find a mirror and dance in front of it then midway through the song someone finds out :O

3. You want to speak to your crush badly. What is your line?
so... it's raining.
(and in emergency situations when its not!)
so...it's not raining.
TADA

4. What do you do if all your friends hate a particular band that you love?
feel special :>

5. What do you do when you trip and fall in front of many people?
wait for the ground to eat me alive
(and if this fails)
find a way to look cool B-)

6. You forgot to do your multiple-choice question homework and your class starts in 5 minutes.
... i would've done it TEN MINUTES before class
MUAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAA
TAKE THAT MR CHI

7. You just finished gym and after a shower, you drop your underpants on the wet floor. What do you do?
the used underpants? or the one im suppose to change into..
either way.
ewwwwwwww

8. What do you do if a personality quiz says that you have a lousy personality as your result?
i'm suing

9. Your friend gave you the worst gift you have ever received and asks: Do you like it? How do you react?
hurt their feelings and make them feel bad!!
(but if this person is too important)
say thank you
then on their bday im gonna get them a waaaay better present then they'll feel guiiiilty MUAHAHAHHAA!!!!!

10. (Continued from question 9) What are you really thinking secretly inside?
dammit where do i put this thang?

11. A hot guy/girl keeps looking at you while you are on the bus. What are you secretly thinking inside?
how you doin?

12. Your crush and you are eating dinner together, the food you've ordered came first, eat, or wait?
wait
...
wait....... eat :D
screw my crush. why arent you my boyfriend yet huh huh huh. ill eat ahead in your face!

13. You are alone in your house and you realized that there is a burglar. What do you do?
pretend to be asleep and like a ninja
go back to sleep :D
no...
i'll pretend to sleep and then pray pray pray then see if i can beat him up :D (if he has no gun)

14. What do you do when your best friend had just spoilt your favourite one and only camera with all the important photos you cherished inside?
my sister has already done that -_-
I BEATED HER UP
like the burglar

15. What do you do if you break your friend's favourite vase but he or she didn't see it?
depends.. who is this... "friend"

16. What do you do if you saw a cat chasing a mouse?
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
video it.
from a faaaaar distance

17. You missed your favourite TV show and it was the season finale. What do you do?
YOUTUBE!

18. There is a crash in your schedule, one is your friend's wedding, the other is your another friend's last day of funeral. What will you do?
heh
youtube..?

Thursday, June 11, 2009

121: boreed

got this from aqilah's blog who got it from christie

--Layer One: On the Outside

Name:
Justine
Birthday: May 1
School: School of the Arts, Singapore.
Eye Color: Brown.
Hair Color: DarkBrown.
Righty or Lefty: Righty.

--Layer Two: On the Inside

Your Heritage:
pinoy.
Your Fears: pain
Weakness: cake
Goal: ninja pirate.
Regrets: too many
Relieving Stress: cloverfeild mushroom.
Hardest thing ever dealt with: life.

--Layer Three: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow

Your thoughts first waking up:
Whats for lunch
Your bedtime: when needed
Your most missed memory: being a naive and careless

--Layer Four: Your Pick

Pepsi or Coke:
i dont care
McDonald's or Burger King: depends
Single or Group dates: depends
Adidas or Nike: depends
Lipton Tea or Nestea: Nestea.. wth lipton tea
Chocolate or Vanilla: depends.
Cappuccino or Coffee: depends.

stop using quizzes for advertising purposes

--Layer Five: Do you?

Do Drugs:
im stoned enough
Have a crush: yeah
Think you've been in love: hah hah
Want to get married: yeah
Believe in yourself: yeah
Think you're a health freak: 2.4 :|
no

--Layer Six: In the Past Month

Drank alcohol:
yeah.
Gone to the mall: O_O yeah
Eaten Sushi: yeah.
Gone skating: nah.
Dyed your hair: yeah
Done something exciting: uh.. sure?

--Layer Seven: Have You Ever?

Played a stripping game:
yeah.
Got beaten up: *looks at you* yeah.
Changed who you were to fit in: yeah
Hid something from someone: yeah.

--Layer Eight: Getting Old

Age your hoping to be married:
24-33.
Age to start having children: 26-30
Want to travel to: Everywhere :)

--Layer Nine: Perfect Mate

Best Eye Color:
Green or grey, something cool
Best Hair Color: anything.
Short or Long Hair: depends

--Layer Ten: What were you doing...

1 MINUTE AGO:
watching youtube
1 HOUR AGO: watching youtube.
1 DAY AGO: shopping with a terrorist.
1 YEAR AGO: having malay with ramsay

--Layer Eleven: Finish the Sentence

I LOVE:
money.
I FEEL: not bothered.
I HATE: blind J.
I HIDE: "what I really feel". -how ironic.
whats precious
I MISS: memories
I NEED: guidance.

Sunday, June 7, 2009

120: the frog in a well

i love writing :)
i love writing stories..
but recently its just been so hard
everythings in my head already, the story, the appearnace. It's just so hard to capture it in words.
I think i'll be a movie writer/director instead.
but SOME people dont want to help me with my experimental movies
aka
anisha krish and nikki
dont wanna do my cool thing :(
hmph
fine ill just find other people to act in my movies and while we're off being famous your stuck with your... stuff... :|

i dunno

xxx
batman has to sleep seriously

Monday, June 1, 2009

119: zoo my gosh

According to christie the last survivor of titanic died today :|
I wonder if it was Rose..
And if it were her
I wonder how..
and what she was feeling.
Happy to be with Jack in the afterlife?
Relief? Was she in pain this whole time carrying the memories of Titanic with her?
Sadness. Regret.
Did she feel pain. Or was it nothing compared to what she's already been through on Titanic.
I hope she had a good life.
I pray she's with her love once more.
If I were her, lying on my bed, or the hospital bed, Ill from a disease. Would I know that I was about to die.. probably not. What I'd do, if I were her, I'd look out of the window, out into the world, the sky, breathe in, and just remember, remember as much as I can, let all those memories cover me like a blanket, let it weigh me down, I'd let it make me smile, cry, laugh, want to punch someone's face. I'd let all these feelings overcome me, I'll hold onto that blanket, like a hand, then as soon as I feel it slip away I'd breathe in deeply, look deep into it and thank it. Then I truly let go and the world truly let's go of me.
:)
Jack and Rose.
Together once again. :)

xxx
batman out

118: uselessguy

Dear uselessguy
What do I say to you?
I want to know how you are, I want to know the truth.
How did you really feel, back then.
I've kept you secret this whole time.
What have you been doing
Was I just another kid
another person, little girl, in your life.
Are you happy
miserable
You're old
I want to know you again.
But I'm scared...
I want you to be real again.
But, you never will be will you
cause we're worlds apart
justice is blind
love is blind
So let's cover our eyes again
I want to know you again
please

shit im so desperate
ok back to being normal :)

damn... i miss being poetic..
i should totally be miserable and melodramatic and over act more :D
yay! go flaws


innywho bought presents presents presents!!

:( I bought a shirt for krish but I wanna give it to ramsay now cause it;s HIS birthday.. and it suits him more..
but i cant exchange it for a larger size..
guilty guilty guilty
dammit.. why does krish have to be so damn tiny...
stupid impulse buying instincts


xxx
batman :)

Sunday, May 31, 2009

117: I didnt know who i was suppose to be, at fifteen

a posse ad esse
from being able to being
ab aeterno
from the eternal
ab imo pectore
from the bottom of my heart
ab initio
from the beginning
ab intra
from within
ad astra
to the stars
ad vitam aeternam
to eternal life
adsum
I am here
Agnus Dei
Lamb of God




alis aquilae on an eagle's wings taken from the Book of Isaiah, Chapter 40. "But those who wait for the Lord shall find their strength renewed, they shall mount up on wings like eagles, they shall run and not grow weary, they shall walk and not grow faint."



carpe noctem seize the night carpe diem seize the day


nomen nudum
naked name

Justitia omnibus - Justice for all




Sunday, May 3, 2009

116: ITS A MAYDAY PARADE

I'll post pictures up soon :D
my sister has them -_- dun dun dun

I had a dream in one of the many times I slept today.
One I remember was I had to wake up for school and I was late so I was panicking and then I ended up going to school with no bag! Then I had to enter the school hall and when I opened the door mrs chu was talking on stage so I went to take a seat behind Krish and Anisha then she introduced these people who were going to perform with us for something like the Arts fest thing. And then the people who came in were all my old friends. Or at least the non-sota ones (or the non-mcs ones) pretty much the ones from tanglin and a few from philippines. They all didnt see me, they just walked past me and my best friend from tanglin changed so much! She was skinnier and had short hair and it made me feel so... stand still. It made me feel so un evolved. I hate change but I accept it anyway, but I never felt so... horrible about not changing. I dont know how to explain it, anyway she stood in front of me with her back facing me (and she was wearing a backless top.. weird) then krish was like hey isnt that your friend from tanglin? and I'm like yeah, then everyone started crowding around me going like hey your friends with them. and I just wanted to escape so i did and i ended up in the bus stop. I saw my best friend there with her mom and she was watching me but i didnt say hi to her i just moved from different person to different person and one of them was ryan. then the bus came and ryan was suppose to come but he didnt and i got on the bus and i didnt have shoes on!!!!! so i was telling the bus driver to stop and he wouldnt so i ended up riding the bus with no shoes. then i sat down and i was on a train kinda thing and my shoes were on. ive never felt so relieved. and then all of a sudden ramsay entered the train. and i remember thinking he'll be like my best friend from tanglin, changed and not seeing me so I just kept looking out the window but then ramsay sat next to me and then we were in school again and we were sitting under the umbrella table. I woke up cause my dad overtook someone on the road and he broke really fast and it was the most fookin scary thing in my life.
I think that was a very weird dream.

ANYWAY
to my birthday!!
we went to a beach in something.. malaysia.
and while i was there ive never felt so "damn i should pay attention to con.malay more often" in my life.
A lot of people greeted me happy birthday and Im so :):):):):):):)
I got really nice presents from my parents :D:D:D
art magazines and a bag :D:D
they bought me a book I already own and i hate it when stuff like that happen :(
innywho.
I bet i got fatter
we were eating like buffets the whole time ugh
and the drive was like
BARF
my dad..
SUCKS at driving
hes like swirving everywhere like a douchebag
and then it started raining
and hes like OH YEAH this'll make driving more fun!
and you can barely SEE THE ROAD!! the rain was THAT heavy.
i got some weird bed bug bites as well all over my arm :( sucks

HERES A BRIEF OVERVIEW OF WHAT I DID

drive
boat
arrive
eat
walk around island
picked some shells :D
sleep
did tai chi with dad
breakfast
walked around beach with sister
swam in pool with brother
ate lunch
built sandcasltes with brother
snorkelling (except my mom she went to some spa thing)
JET SKII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
played frisbee with the family (mom is dead competitive... like... O_O)
went back and changed
dinner
woke up
breakfast
checked out
boat (it was free seating my dad sat on the top the last time but we werent able to this time. :( and my dad was like running with all the luggage to the front of the line to get a seat -_-)
drive (crazy dad barfing drive)
then back in singapore!

I wasnt able to buy any gum :( ( i actually still have the ones i bought from america.. i wonder if theyre still any good ...)
but i bought this awesome pirate necklace :D:D:D:D and lotsa ice cream xD

JET SKIIS ARE AWESOMMEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
my sister didnt want to drive hers so she just rode on the back so I got to drive like DOUBLE TIME! :D:D:D and I was driving along the beach (the rocks are so bloody scary.. and when i look at the water its also scary like i keep imagining whats down there.. then falling in to whats down there ::|:|:|:|:|:) BUT IT WAS AWEOMSE!! we were going like SUPER FAST ( 7... thats what it said on the meter thing... doesnt sound fast.. but it was FAST) and whenever I turn huge waves follow then i turn again and you ride that wave and you go like boom boom boom! :DD:D:D:D:D:D::D:DD::D:DD: SO COOL!!!!! I rode the big one so I never fell :D:D:D:D :|:| never gonna ride the small ones :|:|:| And I went to far so the guy in the shop had to chase after us and I thought he was just gonna do something weird so I like.. ran away from him.. :|:| :D:D:D
OH WELL

JET SKIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Id rather get a jet ski then my own car ANYDAY

xxx
batman jet skis

Friday, May 1, 2009

115:Bday

It's my bday
again
for the fifteenth time
I got awesome presents :D:D:D:D
(except for one... where I got a present that I already have - i hate those)
So far I just got the celebration from my parents (I got a banana chocolate malteaser cake :D:D:D in your face anisha) And I got art magazines and a bag.
I also got a bit of a celeberation in school.
I love seeing people I didnt even think I was that close too greet me :) It's very touching. And its very UNtouching when my supposedly close friends DONT GIMME PRESENTS WHEN ASKED
And my aunt is sending her package (as usual per year) Cant wait
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gotta love that
oh and Ramsay actually greeted me! :O
he remembers *gasp*
he greeted me like a week ago... cause he was like "well I might not be online on your bday aydaydyaadyayda"
innywho please check the previous post. love those videos.
gotta leave in 4 hours. beach trip :D wohoo!
I hope I get pics

dead scared for the surprise party (note to self. bring camera)
levedoo
xxx
batman smiles
he old

114: friends

My fav. couples :D

and scenes












xxx